he's here for me to meet, but some feelings is mixed inside of me .. its 10 days since i've ever write this blog.. just dun have the feelings of writing it .. i miss him dearly .. i miss him so much :( but he's with her, does he know how much im hurting ? does he know how i terrible im feeling everytime i read their journal ? i really got no more strength to go on but i keep holding on to him cause i wish one day he'll come back but i dare not let go cause i know he won't turn back to look at me anymore ..