Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?I
can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
- "why" by avril lavigne
*sighs* i dunno y but i fucken love dis song nw =( its kinda sad but smhw i feel dat dere`z something inside dere i wanna ask sumbody but i dun even dare to or izzit i knw d answer long ago .. maybe .. i dont know, i really dunno
well, dis thursday is ma midterm examinations d, lolx, havent even started a single shyt, lol in science i mean.. all i can say is dis year, i totally sucks in science! ma result was terrible last test so i set ma goal dat dis exams must b so much better than dat, must b at least top 5 in class =/ i knw its impossible but at least lemme hav sum hopes lur
kekekkeke .. lol i jz cant wait till exams over man! so syok by then, wanna go shop shop shop =D~~~~~~~~~ n desperate lur =/ well dis morning wake up really really early, around 7 smth n went to d guides headquarters to help up faw d jumble sale thingy =D kena scolding wiv tiff n reg lol, damn funny la wei.. go around askin faw scissors n in d end pn oon sendiri cut. lololol! dat jumble sale thingy was fun, REALLY FUN! rach went dere too .. n yilin n sara came late *NOTTI THEM* *angel me* *prasan again* [hits maself] lol.. well yeah.. stayed dere till around 1.17 den followed rach back to her house.. go dere n they keep disturbing alvin =X not ma fault!! che hui, zing wei n rach was like so addicted to his caller ringtone n keep calling him, in d end .. got scolded by me then thy took zing wei`z phone to record his caller ringtone.. funny rite? lolx! alvin, shud b proud lol, so many girls call u jz now sumore duwan to answer .. guai? konon!
haha well then tak cukup half and hour, mum called sayin dat theyre cuming to fetch me den go lunch .. unfortunately i was too full so i din eat .. then by d way back home, its almost 3 d, so when i reached home, i din even bother to change, just took ma pencil box n science book n rush to d tuition, thank GOD he din started teachin or scolding me yet *evil grinx* im a notti girl in tuition .. okie then after 5 smth, it started to rain, damn it .. i was so wet when i was in d car, rain drops dripping n ma hair !! arghhh!! destroyer, just washed ma hair yesterday *sighs* den straight away go to d jetty to fetch ma cous .. damn, i slept in d car.. coz ma whole body is so sore n im so tired .. reached home at around 6 n went straight to ma room, toook a nap n ma mummy wake me up at dunno wat time to bath n then started going online =D until now .. heheh =DDD~~~~ i wanna go shopping!!!! >"< wait .. two more weeks, two more weeks n im free!! i can go gurney ddd.. yeahhhhh~ miss gurney loads man =(
anyway guess dat all fo today .. tatax =/
lol, today sure was a tiring day =) woke up around 9 sumthing n ma mum wasnt home yet so i went to bath, after dat, she came back n i finished bathin, den chatted wiv coollen, lol, he keep askin me when m i gonna intro ma sis to him.. sheeesh! patience lol, patient is virtue ;) learnt dat frm mark .. hehehe, then yue yue added me into d conversation of regina, her, tiff n janice.. konon u four! hmmph!
after a few minutes, went out to beauty to buy sum stationary stuff faw ma bro .. bought him a file, a shaker, examination pad and lead .. lolx using ma mums money, use ma own money to buy a silver marker n g2 black pen.. mine was rm11.90 plus ma bros things which cost rm15.30 altogether rm 27.20... lolx!i count it wiv ma own brain, no calculater, see la, ma brain so waras still.. then before i came out frm the shop, it rained then ma mum drove to d sideways to pick me up.. but unfortunately, when i open d freaking door, it hit ma forehead, n its swollen till now =( internal bleeding adi.. sumore go sch today keep feel headache .. argg!
okay, ma bus came early today, around 11.35 lol. regina didnt follow ! damn her, leave me alone =( then reached sch around 12.07, put down ma bag n took ma maths hw n went to sit wiv venne n sarah, was doing ma maths homework but sarah wont stop talking bout "HIM" in front of me .. arggg!! so irritated man but still i tolerated .. n half an hour later, zi xin came .. so bored .. after dat ring bell .. lol yeah. d ranger asked us, the f2 guides to participate in the CLHS campfire.. on the 7th of june wan lol, coz its scout =X sumore must pay rm10 .. lol, pokkai dd >.<>
okay okay! heres d funniest part, today got ms ho`z class, english teacher! lolx, she was explainin thingy n i was shaking ma marker so it has a sound like tek tek tek n den rite suddenly she look at me n the whole class` attention was on me, i just smile sweetly at her n suddenly, she say im a model-like student giving her ma sexy poses n i can b a model in future, i was like WTF ? -.- sexy poses? lolx crapper man, i almost took dat marker n screw her! damn it man, wat sexy poses is she saying? i wasnt even SEDUCING her, wtf lar sexy? i hate her.. *calm down* no bad word!! yeah, im saint adelene =)
lol after dat reccess .. nth to tell d .. d funniest part of day had been written so i guess holler nw bloggie =) *mwahx* so tired
2.44am
i dunno wat to feel, im feeling slightly miserable wiv the feeling of regret n mix some frustrations, hey its aight, its normal faw everybody to feel dat way, which i dun even think im normal like everybody .. i dunno y m i feeling dis way but it hurts, it seriously does.. =(
ma lyfe.. i suddenly felt is like im living dis lyfe faw somebody n not me,all my life, im trying to be a perfect dotter, a good frd, a better gf n a person who is good at both sides.. but i dun think dis is me, dis is nvr me.. its not wat i wanted all dis while, im just trying to satisfy ma parents .. trying to b somebody im not.. i felt so miserable today..
i nvr regretted things i did until today, my worst nightmare came to reality, the things im so scared to face.. examination=( *frowning*
examinations make me sick, now im feeling like ma leg is turning to jelly-like, lolx >.<>
now im sittin ere all alone .. wiv d music on so loud n ma dad in d kitchen taking his medicine, pity him, sorethroat n cough=( mwahx, lurve ya daddi *devil sayin:like la as if he'll hear u here* *angel sayin:dun teach her bad la, the thoughts dat counts* lolololx....
still sms-in wiv alvin.. hmmm, lol.. so lazy to type ler, so ciaoz, type another one soon =P
lol, so long since i actually updated ma blog~ yeahhhh~ ma result was terrible dun ask, failed science, screw science! >.< cannot! i love science, lolx .. hmmm yeah, im finally over him but he`z still ma bestie =) mwahx, luv ya mark
exams are cuming soon, nexxt week only, so anxious! damn it =( lemme see, today, nth much happened, woke up relli late at around 10 smth, went online, bath, eat, online n now here ..
tomorrow? nothing much too i guess, oh yeah, today is luca`z bday!mwahx, happi bday=) la la la, im so bored so i decided to update ma blog, guess dats all faw today =)
"missing somebody" GUESS WHO?
Resolution
ttn'