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oh well, i seriously got no strength to write my blog today but I just have to, don't ask me why, I'm so pissed and frustrated now. First of all, MY DAD signed the form for TX for me, and MY MUM don't agree to let me go because she thinks that BOYS ARE EVIL AND HORNY, I mean what the FUCK? This is REALITY la ok? What is wrong with going camp when there's scouts? NOT all BOYS are evil and horny la ok, she thinks that I'm that precious and all those crap, I mean, I don't wanna be perasan la ok, I'm PLAIN UGLY, who wants me? She's making it sound like I'm some kind of a goody goody girl trying to be bad, I mean c'mon la, I've been bad since who knows when, she's exaggerrating way too much bout those camps = =" she have prejudice on me going out with guys la after all, she's just too gender'ist! DISCRIMINATION towards GUYS which are NOT related to her, yes, MY MUM is RACIST too, I'm not saying bad things about her, but these are all FACTS, she's discriminate most malays and some indians, she don't like her daughter to have any guy friends = =" which I know she know i have a lot, so too bad for her. And, MY dad in the other hand is a better guardian than she is, he might be fierce at times, but he's cool, he don't mind me having boys as friends, just don't go overbroad as in like getting into a relationship and GIVE YOURSELF to them, I mean I do get myself involve in that but I don't GIVE MYSELF just like that, I mean, what the hell? must i give sex to get love? that's RUBBISH la ok. And my dad is really wise, I mean altho I don't do really good in exams, he always give me chance, and he never really scold me that TERRIBLE like most of my friends' parents la. He's just giving me encouraging words and stuff, but I don't take that for advantages, i DID try my best in all my exams. Altho I said I don't study, but I do go over my books, memorizing stuff, trying hard to score my best for it. I don't give things up easily, but that's for something la. Sometimes I do give things up for their own good, for my own good too.
OK, let's get back to the whole camp thingy, my DAD allows me to go for it, but he gotta work, he can't always fetch me here and there right? I'm just asking my mum to do the slightest favour ever to just drop me in school earlier tomorrow, and she's saying stuff like, " I didn't agree to let you go, your dad signed the form, ask him fetch you la", "After this camp, surely there's many more activities wan, sign sign sign only, later you'll bring home a stack of form for your dad to sign", and " You just don't wanna stay at home, always finding a way to get out of the house". HELL YEAH! I agree with the last sentence, I mean who wants to be at home when she's always there to nag nag nag and NAG at me? pathetic la. She's always saying the same thing, and sometimes I just have this feeling of leaving home. It's so miserable staying home, I don't mine my father, I mean he work and yes, he can scold me, HE HAVE the rights to,my mum on the other hand is carefree, she dont work, she is STRESSLESS, why the hell must she even scold my maid or me and my brothers? she's psychotic la = =" hate her so much till now, arghhh!
Whatever la, no matter what, I'm going to sch early tomorrow, it's either she wanna fetch or not, I'll still have Regina to fetch me. At least that's I think. HAHA, that's my first laugh in this post, I can't seem to laugh, I kinda miss Mou Jian, haha, for the past few days la, he was always online with me, SMS with me, haha, I mean, DON'T GET ME WRONG la, haha we're just friends, we're both greedy pigs for testimonials *evil grins* OMG i shouldn't have said it, HAHA he'll kill me. wait let me see, he'll deny it and say it's untrue.hmmmm. haha surely wan le lol. Aiyer, lazy to type d. I'll type again later, or tomorrow. Anyway, gotta plan drawing my banner tomorrow or not i'll be like SO DEAD! haha.ciao *hugs* mwahxx!
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6:45 PM
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Ah well. Lastnight I can't really sleep, I admit I was really angry of somebody lastnight before I went to bed. I don't even bother to reply his message before I off my phone, haha but I miss him a lot =( I don't know why, I promised myself to control my feelings for him. I did and I will continue being evil towards him, because I don't want to be labelled a boyfriend stealer and I don't want anymore relationship problem in my life. It's more than enough in the past =)
So, I woke up at around 9 something this morning, was kinda excited about the meeting. I mean not as in excited la, worried of which patrol will I be in and how EVIL is the Patrol Leader[PL] hahah and how much is my patrol fees gonna be cause I think I'll be paying it myself, altho I'm in a major money crisis now. Hahah, went online after I woke up, no no, on'ed my phone, saw his messages again. Ignore it, got to control myself. So straight down to the computer and online.
Saw Jang Heng online, talked to him for a while and yeah, Davids too. HAHA, then went to shower, washed my hair >.< then ate Fillet-O-Fish as my breakfast, haha McDonalds, yeah. Then waited for my bus to come, damn, today is LATE, super late! Waited from 11.37 to 11.52, 15 minutes. ARGH! hahaha, then reached school, Tiffany and Xu Jen was there already.
After a while, Joanne came and Sze Wei came to us, the our seniors, Su Ting and Angelin came to find us, taught us how to fall in and fall out and stuff while waiting for Renee then 12.50 we walked to McDonalds, OMG McDonalds is like so full. Wasted 30 minutes lining up for food. HAHA, useless huh?:p
Hahaha, then walked to PFS at 1.45, reached there, saw MGS, SGGS, PCGHS, CLS girls. Haha, then we lined up and stuff la, CGL is with OWL Patrol. lol cute, haha. Well, our PL, Guo Sheng, hmmm.. considered ok la, never scold us and yeah. Wasted two hours there talking about Daniel Lee. HAHA, Sze Wei got us into the mood of talking bout him. LoL, funny. Came back at 5 pm, went to shower again then straight to bed.
Woke up then here I am now, writing this stupid blog. Hahaha, lazy to write already le. DOINK DOINK me.haha
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8:59 PM
Friday, October 21, 2005
Sighs. Today is my death day. I got my Science Paper, as I expected, I FAILED with 35 only, I did STUDY but whatever I studied wasn't out. For Heaven's sake, I think I'm dropping class for now. FOR SURE ok = =" they said if I fail either, the two most important subject which is Mathematics or Science, that means I consider as failing ALL. ARGH! I can't believe it, this is the first time I actually feel so terrible for what I get =/
I mean, I need at least 5 more marks to pass, in my first test, i need only 2 or 3 marks to pass but she don't even give. You think she'll give me 5 more marks just to pass? How pathetic? I think everybody in my class win me, except for some Malays and yeah, Kaan failed with me, but she get higher than me, I'm feeling so useless and stupid now.ARGH! As for my Geography, I never thought of getting so high =/ I tiang'ed almost all, sighs. I don't care d la. Ish
Jota was actually not that bad as you see. Hahaha, it was quite a lot of fun for beginners, Traplex : Don't Know, I don't even know if I can go or not now, DAMN! All my mum's fault, she menghasut'ed my father saying this and that. I don't know la, I'm wishing for my dad to be in a good mood tomorrow so I can pester him till he let me go, secondly, I can't let my mother be by his side when I asked for it.Mwahahhaha =X
LOL, leaving now.Lazy to type. Sorry! mwahx!
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1:02 AM
Friday, October 14, 2005
*Sighs* OMG, in two hours time, I'm gonna be in JOTA, SUFFERING! OMG OMG OMG, GOD BLESS ME! please. waaa T_T I haven't been updating my blogs for the past few days, too lazy I guess, exams just over and yeah, guess what? I got 67 for my Kemahiran Hidup and 79 [ONLY!!] for my ENGLISH. Actually I haven't tell my parents about my English marks, shame on me, argh! I can't believe it.DAMN never have I got so low in English before Form2. ARGH, my life is so over when I get my Science=)) prepared to die ~!! WO HOOO~
LOL, uh huh, I've been awake since 7 a.m. yes you're right, 7 IN THE MORNING! I can't sleep, not because of the excitement but because of I miss *somebody* too much and also, because of my 'beloved' DAUGHTER! KONON, she said she's reaching my house around 10 now it's 12 thirty and she's not even OUT from her house.I'm so gonna screw her later =S LOL, yeah MUM screwing DAUGHTER, that's what my mum did to me when I asked her to wait for only 10 minutes outside of Gurney! It's so UNFAIR! HELL
Arghh, I don't want to be late for JOTA, damn! Oh, she just called me LOL, haha my daughter called asking for my address.NO WONDER, she forgotten her mum's address. HAHA.ok hmmm~ I'm gonna be back around 10 or 11 later. so shit, I'm gonna miss my favourite show =(( but it's worth it. lol
Tiffany and I are planning to get 11 badges for tomorrow's game.lol=)) one badge for THREE games, they have like 33 games, so yeahh. We are playing ALL OF IT, that's if WE can la.LOL usually we'll freak out cause there will be like EWWW EWW YUCKS~ YERR!! sound from my DEAR friends.HAHA lol
I guess that's for all =))
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12:16 PM
Monday, October 10, 2005
LOL.Today is really a nice day =) haha.why? because it's the end of MY exams! OMG OMG OMG.So happy, during BM Paper1, I was conteng'ing my paper la, then i keep writing OMG OMG OMG exam's over. eff'ing happy and shits like that. HAHA.too gemas =S what to do. MERDEKA!! XD
During History Paper, I admit, I cheated..LOL successfully =X thanks to Zi Xin, MY life saviour! HAHA, hope the answer is right le, or NOT i'll die, i THINK i'm dropping to fourth class already, I don't know why, I just feel like it, how the hell can I make this feelings go away? I wanna enjoy the rest of the days till I get my Report Card, argh! This Friday is JOTA-JOTI camp already, hooorayyy! Can skip school on Friday, superb! Won't get to see that fucken BITCH face in school, she's really getting on my nerve lately, a teacher without brain, DAMN her, how can she actually be a teacher? I'm doubting the fact she can even teach, all she does is look up at the FIRST CLASS STUDENT and look down on others, what is she then? RUBBISH, just TRASH! Don't remind me of her anymore.DAMN!
I just can't wait for JOTA man, it's gonna be so much FUN seeing IVAN and JANICE =D lol.We're so gonna scream by the time we reach there, BUGS, SWEAT, DIRTY, FUN, DENGUE, that's my words of description for the camp, please don't feel scared by it, I think when we're there we're gonna have MORE FUN then feeling depressed in school waiting for results, right? HAHA
I hope I'm either in the same patrol with Jack OR my daddy, Sui Thong, at least I THINK they'll help me through the HARD time I'm going to have there.At least that's what I THINK la, ish! HAHA, I think YueShern and Caryn is skipping school too, since none of us is going to be in school on Friday. Wait, JOTA is going to be FUN, so is the coming BEACH PARTY! Can't wait for it man, DAMN! It's a relief that exams SO OVER =/ just wish nothing bad will happen to my results =S argh!
I miss *** *** so much! He didn't on his phone, I wonder what happened to him. Argh, can he like just contact me? Telling me he's alright. I just need to know what is he doing now, argh, man I can't stand the feeling of missing him so much ='( and I just plain HATE that feeling, it doesn't hurt, it just torture me =/ even after my exams, I gotta be tortured by my own emotion. NOTHING is PERFECT, FUCK this phrase, EVERYBODY is PERFECT in their way, we have no rights to even judge them. So are those bitches and jerks out there who is judging other, PLEASE judge YOURSELF before you judge others. =) Please and Thank You :))
ahhh. This is long, i gotta rest my finger,hehe =) mwahx.
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8:12 PM
Saturday, October 08, 2005
:)) Awh, blog oh blog, I'm admiring you now.HAHA it's just so nice =) can't blame it, thanks to Chisa for this skin :)) love her art a lot! It's all beautiful pieces, hehe. Oh well, here I am sitting in front of the computer, 25% eating my Fish-O-Fillet, 25% chatting, 25% blogging and 25% listening to musics.HAHA,oh well, let's start from the beginning of my DAY :)) SATURDAY! HAHA, i slept at around 5 something, was sms'ing Kent Wyn till I felt sleepy so I slept la.Woke up at 9.40a.m. Ken Min miss-called and I woke up. Then my mum came to my room at 10 a.m. nagging for me to bath so went to shower.
Came out from showering then,came straight down to the comp and my mummy,Rachel was online so I talked to her for a while then asked her opinion on Yue Shern's blogskin,she liked it a lot =) I'm glad,hehe then she went offline,so I started to create a blog for Yue Shern and editted all her stuff for her.Finished at 10.45 and start admiring Yue Shern's and MY blog.HAHA, blogging can be addictive if you don't control.As you see, I admire it because it's just so nice =) TOO nice is the word.HAHA, well after that I off'ed the computer at 11.15 as I wanted to be a good daughter and stop my mum from nagging at me to off the computer and wait for the bus.BUT too bad, she was showering,so, she can't see her GOOD daughter for once. HAHA
Reached school at 12.10 PM lol, walked with Tiffany, Vennezia, Regina, Caryn and all my friends.Later Laura came and talked talked talked, Yue Shern came then after a while, it's time for assembly.HAHA, I signed up for TRAPLEX without even asking my parents if I can OR not.LOL, but most probably NO, why? CAUSE they'll give me reasons like you're too young to join such an EXPENSIVE camp. But who cares, I just put my name there, I'm not even paying for my name.LOL =))
Then we had lots of fun at school and MOST people thought it was a MONDAY, awhhh.Just can't wait till EXAMS over, then everyday will be a SUPER NICE day without stressing in studies.Oh yeah, i got my KH marks =) i got 67 :)) SO HAPPY! THIS is like the highest in my whole life for KH la.hahah, then ENGLISH PAPER 1 : FAILURE =)) I GOT so FREAKING low for it, it's like ALMOST everybody in MY class beat me,DAMN! IT's too embarrassing to be mentioned here *sighs* argh! NO EXAMS talking in BLOG, er I mean REGRETS in EXAMS.HAHA as i know i'll regret a lot after it, so it's better left UNKNOWN :))
Ken Min is now in Gurney with Alvin,argh! Hate them, went there without me =( so EVIL of them.HAHA PMR is NOT even OVER! >.< and they get to go Gurney,good for them.Ah well, starting from tomorrow till Tuesday, I'm gonna be a vegetarian for THREE miserable days, I wonder if I can stand it, HAHA, my parents wanted me to be one, everybody in my family is going to be vegetarian, I'm gonna be the odd one if I don't follow:)) so yeah, I'm daddy's little girl again.
Well, tomorrow is a Sunday already and Monday is my LAST day of exams.Can't wait for it, I'm planning to study HISTORY for the whole day tomorrow, NO DISRUPTION =) I'm relying on my History for my whole class-grading thingy, if I drop class, I seriously wonder what will happen to me.ARGH! I don't even want to think of it now, STUDY STUDY STUDY! =) MY ROUTINE FOR TOMORROW. STUDY, STUDY,STUDY! It's a MUST if I want to remain in the class I am IN now or go to a BETTER class which is 3 MERAH next year,GOD bless ME please =)
HAHA I think that's for today,too lazy to write more, I'm home alone with my maid, parents went chanting =/ brothers went out with friends, I'm so LONELY =( nevermind, at least i HAVE my COMPUTER to entertain me, and not forgetting my HANDPHONE.Haha =)
SO yeah, take care XD bye :))
la la la
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6:58 PM
OK I consider this as a Saturday, a day which I have school later.I'm going by bus cause my mum is just TOO lazy to get her ass off the bed =S weird huh? Why can't I just ponteng straight? She said I'll either online or sms at home. Actually, she's right.HAHA I never really studied.Oh well let me tell you something ok? SCIENCE paper2 was a DISASTER! A terrible DISASTER, I know NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING in it. The only thing i know was, erm the counting of power? or the work done? AH yeah, the work done.HAHA and the other was the whale thing.what supported the whale to live.HAHA.Buoyancy of water! i know THAT only.
Then, after Science was Friday, er yesterday is the word.yeah. We had Art.LOL, ART was fucking easy which i don't think i know anything also cause i didn't even look at the book! Haha, me, vennezia and Xu Jen almost got caught for cheating,wait! rewind! i DIDN'T cheat, lol, I was just checking answers.HAHA but yeah we escaped then after recess was Geography, I thought everything will go just fine till I stared at the paper for 2 minutes.Didn't blink, just continue staring at it,just saying I tiang'ed 80% of the paper :))
I know how terrible it is, but I'd rather TIANG than to copy again and get caught with ZERO marks,now you see the difference huh? DAMN, I'm supposed to be studying or maybe sleeping now.But I'm just too good to be here and update my long NOT updated blog which I recently updated it,it's so much better now, at least with a better layout. I'm still sms'ing Ken Min, lol and chatting with Adelyn from MGS and WAS chatting with my DEAREST and MOST BELOVED son, Andrew.HE went to study for his PMR, LOL haha.I know he got the genes from me :)) last minute studying.HAHA =)
Ah well, bye for now, got to get some sleep before I start snoring in school tomorrow.Haha, anyway I'm having my last day of exams on Monday, BM Paper1 and History :)) Gotta study real hard for History, I need to struggle till Monday then I'm FREE! F - R - E - E !! Woooo-hooo~!!
HAHAHA
*smoochiezx*
buh-bye x)
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1:46 AM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
lol.damn ='( so long since i actually updated my blog.haha =) i miss it tho.
I'm having Science Paper 1 and 2 tomorrow,but before that, I have English Paper 1.I guess it's easy to score for that since it's all objective.As for Science, I think I'm going to study later, "burning midnight oil" Haha. For once, I actually make an effort to study for Science since I never really did study Science because er,I'm way too lazy, I seriously rather waste my time studying the most boring subject, History than to study Science, at least I can understand History better than Science.
I know I don't seem to have fate with Science, but now, I seriously gotta study for it.Haha, because this exam is for the class grading >.< I can't drop class, my parents will skin me alive.LOL.Serious. They're looking forward to see at least 4 or 5 As in my report card.God bless me.
Ah, well, I'm just here to update a little,I gotta go study now before I feel sleepy and go to sleep =) hehe.LOL. I will update real soon when I have time..
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10:38 PM
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