Once upon a time
There was a story of a little girl
Innocence was her only crime
One of the few she did not commit
As days grew long
and frustrations grew
She found ways to release pain
All so unreal, but so true
She played with razors
and danced with burning fire
She told of her pain and misery
to have the world call her a liar
She carves her arm and slices on the vein
to say what her heart couldn't
the only way to express the pain
So sick and so twisted
Using the drugs to give her feel
Letting guys use her
Only to make her feel real
Only creating more anger
Once upon a time
falling asleep, only possible by tears
Scared of nightmares and dreams
Escalating and feeding her biggest fears
When mommi and daddi hit her
Bruise after bruise, night after night
She never told anyone
Stood her ground, never fight
All the nights she said
"I Want To Die"
Maybe she meant it
It wasn't all a lie
That's why I tell you this story
of a girl who lived a lie
Welcome to fairy tale land
Once upon a suicide
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so my type of poem. HAHA =)
it kinda reflects to me, except some part. HAHA
people who is close to me shall know.
13 more days to OUR 6th month.
24 more days to PMR Trials.
73 more days to PMR.
i'm back. yay. nowadays, i usually post in my xanga. heh but its okay. i'll still post here if i have time =)
usually i dont do this. but today, arghh. i need to get it out of my heart. i can't stand keeping this to myself, well at least a few of my friends know.. grrr
there's this girl, and yes, i hate her. sad for her cause when i hate somebody there must be something i really don't life.
facts bout why i dislike her.
1`
she's such a faker on reality.
2`
she's somebody i would really hate because of the history.
3`
she has a really bad attitude for her age, no respect for the older. i despise you !
4`
she got this ' Please Hate Me' look everytime i see her.
5`
as most people know, i really hate those japanese dolls ? you know those act cuters. uh huh. she's soon to be one of the japanese wannabes. and don't copy *****'s style. it's a copycat work.
6`
she's sucked **** ****'s **** LMAO. this is funny, its fake but well. HAHAH i'm just sharing my thoughts bout what she might do to get what she have now.
7`
she's robotic, bad movement. hate her dance steps. too woody. too stiff. i can dance better ;) no kidding
8`
she looks innocent when i first saw her, well, kinda innocent. now, she's all wild wearing all those clothing to seduce them.
9`
she acts like she's the best, let me give you a piece of advice. " self confidence is good, but over confident will cause you your downfall "
10`
you try too hard to be somebody you're not & somebody you're never going to be.
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sorry to say this, but, girl, you suck.
try acting like yourself and not what others want you to be.
i know what you people might think, i hate her cause i'm jealous.
hey ! at least i admit, yes i'm jealous. so ? she's pretty, i can be prettier too.
uh huh, i'm evil, i'm selfish, i'm self-centered, i'm mean.
whatever. i don't care.
i don't simply judge people you see.
but once i judge you, it meant you're either one of the best or one of the worst.
buhh.. i may not be the best girl on earth
at least i am honest to myself
i'm fat, so ? i can diet to get myself thinner.
i'm short, so? i can jump more to make myself taller.
i'm stupid. nobody is stupid actually, they're just lazy. just like me. HAHA
i'm working on the lazy part, i'm trying to study as much as possible, so yeah.
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okay. that felt good after blabbering everything out. argh ! nice feeling. heh =) so yeah. that's for all, i'm having a real terrible sorethroat here. i can feel my throat burning and what made it worse is, i'm coughing too. *sighs* i might get some lungs problem. grrrr ! i've been coughing since weeks ago, it still won't go, i am positively sure something is wrong with me but i just can't bring myself to a doctor. HAHAHA. medicine sucks, so, yeah, sorry. i'm not a doctor material or a fan of medicine, uhh wait, nobody is. so yeah, too bad.
okay wait, its late. =( i need to go study shoosshh. anyway, I WANT TO PONTENG TUITION I WANT TO WATCH THE SECOND CHANCE SHOW ! the One In A Million Second Chance Show for the bottom 10 to perform and let the judge choose one to be in the top12 and the sms votes to choose another one to get in the top12
i am devoted to CINDY. yes, baby. she's MY one in a million for she have her own style, fashion and good vocals.
PEOPLE OUTSIDE ! if you're reading this, take out your phone and type " IN CINDY " and send to 32728
VOTE FOR HER =)
Resolution
ttn'